Crazy and Unpredictable

This one nearly wrote itself.
I heard a song on the radio, one I hadn't heard in a long time,
and it made me stop work long enough to write this out. ©August 1998

Thoughts of you roll through my head
memories of what we once shared
drift like autumn leaves scattered by the wind
and I can't seem to stop thinking about
all the could have beens and maybes
and I wonder what it is that you're doing now

The sad thing is I don't think I really loved you
and we both knew I was just pretending to
you used to get so jealous of the time I spent away from you
if I was two minutes late, you thought I was out having an affair
it made you crazy and unpredictable
but I knew you inside and out
you hated that

Do you remember our first night together
I drove out to the grocery store at midnight
for a pint of Ben & Jerry's ice cream
and you said you'd never had any
and I insisted you had to have a taste
but you said vanilla was vanilla no matter what

Why is it that I can't hear Paula Abdul or Whitesnake
without thinking of you
or the glimpse of your face in someone else's body
turns me inside out like a T-shirt in the washing machine
and I start remembering things I'd thought I'd forgotten
like how desperately I wanted you to be the one
even as I knew you were just substituting for someone else

The sad thing is I know I really loved you at one point
and we both knew when I stopped loving you
you were so jealous and possessive,
you couldn't believe it when I said I was leaving you
you claimed I was just trying to get your attention
and that I was really still in love with you
and i probably should've hated you for that

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